Hearing this spontaneous poetry exalting his unlimited glories, the Carefree pleasantly smiled a smile as captivating as his illusory energy.
Kṛṣṇa is also named “Carefree” – Vaikuṇṭha.
After all these prayers, Kuntī and all the ladies invited him into Gaja Sāhvya Palace. There, the King lovingly stopped him.
Kṛṣṇa was going to leave for his own city. Then there was an emergency and Kṛṣṇa saved everyone from a destructive blast. Immediately after this, Kuntī saw her golden opportunity and approached Kṛṣṇa asking him not to leave. After her prayers, Kṛṣṇa accepted her invitation to return within the Palace. There, King Yuddhiṣṭhira lovingly stopped Kṛṣṇa to talk.
Sages like Vyāsa had explained to the king that all events, however bewildering, are ordained by the will of the Controller, Kṛṣṇa; and tried to give examples from history to console him. But his grief and distress could not be appeased.
The King, Dharma’s Son, carried away by the bewilderment of a commoner’s conception of affection, troubled by having killed his protectors, spoke:
“Alas! Look at my stupidity! Look how evil is rooted in my heart! This body should be used to help others, but I have used it to kill them; many, many armies of them!
“Boys, teachers, protectors, friends, fathers, brothers, and gurus I have killed. I shall not escape hell for millions upon millions of years.
“Morality dictates that there is no sin for a king who kills enemies responsibly to protect the citizens, but I don’t think this applies to me.
The common man searches the law and scripture for loopholes to excuse his miserable selfishness, but the true son of Dharma searches the same to expose, not hide, the evils within.
“I have killed the relatives of many women, and they must all hate me. I don’t think there is anything I can do to make these worldly people forgive me. You can’t use mud to clean muddy water; or wine to purify it of alcohol. The sacrifice of an animal cannot cleanse me of the sin of murder.”
A low grade spiritualist dismisses the worldly as unimportant. But the great Yuddhiṣṭhira sees their desires and needs as important.